It's Been a While....
Wow, it sure has been a while, hasn't it?
It's been a while since I've had the oomph to write to you all and also a bit since I've had some excellent uninterrupted time as well. But everything I'm experiencing in this season of my life is probably very similar to a season you had or have, in your own. We all have our ups and downs, and I think it's essential to make the best of the lows, love the highs, appreciate ALL of them, and try to learn the lesson in it all. Whether it is obvious or not, I genuinely believe there is always a lesson every season.
Like many of you, life has been getting in the way, ha! But where would it be if it wasn't for our crazy lives? This season of my life has been craaaaaazy!
Like many of you have experienced, my consulting business got a little slow during the pandemic. So things got slow, and a few months into prospecting for new clients, a previous employer contacted me. His business partner (and wife), is retiring, and they'd like me to come back a few days a week, so I accepted! I manage my business and nonprofit as equally as possible, but sometimes my nonprofit takes more of my time, but the nonprofit work just comes so much easier to me.
I must say I'm enjoying being "back in the car biz" while having the flexibility to keep some of my clients. It is the perfect combo for me right now and came at the perfect time!
In addition to adding a new "old' job back in the mix, I have been spending a lot of time helping my immediate family. This time increased at the end of April when I moved my grandmother from an obscure town in New Mexico to Minneapolis to be close to my dad. Same apartment complex close! I am trying to make reasonably frequent trips back to Minneapolis to visit both of them, make sure they are doing well and accept the paths their health is taking them down, and provide as much advice as possible without pissing everyone off! In July, I moved my mother into a senior community that, has to be honest, saved her life. I am very thankful that she accepted that she needed to be in a place that could provide the help I could not or that she would even take from me. Of course, with all three of my loves, it is always a constant tip-toe dance on eggshells of not offering too much advice, or you can imagine what that looks like.
But I must say, I am just so thankful to have my mom, dad AND grandmother in my life because one day I will not.
Then there's my own health. I've been sick for a few years, and migraines were always huge issues and have been for 24 years. Thankfully I am on a life-saving drug that keeps the once 20 migraine day months at bay, maybe just a couple a month if any at all. But in May, I was diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes, and while the medicine I was on was helping for a bit, I just got worse. I saw an Endocrinologist who did more lab work and determined it was Type 1 Diabetes, so we switched me over to 2 types of Insulin. This is still a tremendous pain in my butt. And fingers, and everywhere I administer the injections four times a day, LOL! It has been about four weeks on Insulin, and I still have not found my happy place yet. Still have high glucose all day long, waking up literally EVERY night drenched in sweat and changing my clothes at least once, and now I am having a few really low glucose levels thrown in there, which is awful. I am ALWAYS hungry. All-day extended no matter what, ESPECIALLY when I'm low. I just want to devour any and everything in front of me, food or not. Unfortunately, I'm only allowed three meals a day which consists of 45 grams of carbs each, and two snacks a day consisting of 15 g of carbs a day. If you know me, a person who LOVES to snack all day long, this has been a challenging life change. After seven months of eating healthier, you would think that I would be used to it, but it is almost like it is becoming torture. I am hoping that all of this is just a result of my glucose numbers being the worst rollercoaster of all time and that when I see a new endocrinologist, it will end soon because she gets my insulin right.
I'm usually pretty strong and make the best of things, but I must admit this season has been tough. But like all of the others, I know this one shall pass. There is a lesson, and when I have entirely accepted and understood it, I can share it with you all. Until then, I will share my raw feelings of these experiences and say, "We will all be ok as long as we try to move forward. If we cannot at least try to put one foot out in front of the other, we will do nothing but stand in the same place we've been."
Until next time my friends. I will try not to take so long to write.
I hope you are all doing as well as possible.
Much love,
Traci
